This year made me realize I really don’t need everybody around me. Lately, I’ve been distancing myself from people no matter who you are or how close we seemed. I may not be rich, but I give myself respect.
Crazy how I had to start all over again these past few months, and the same people I thought would show up for me didn’t even check in. Instead, they only come to me with their own problems, asking for advice, while nobody asks how I’m coping or surviving.
It’s sad because I’ve lived like this almost all my life. But this time hurts differently because when I truly needed the people I hoped would stand behind me, they never showed up.
Goodnight. I don’t want friends or love right now. I’ve been real with everyone that crossed my path, but somehow, when it comes to my own problems, I’m always the lonely wolf.
People tell me that I’m so talented or that I’m so good at this and that, and I always give gratitude back, always. But internally I’m frustrated with myself because everything I’ve done up to this point is has never impressed me.
It’s a strange feeling for people to tell you how good or talented you are something and to think, “I could have done better.”
Maybe it’s imposter syndrome or maybe it’s perfectionism but I know myself, and my potential and I’ve limited myself over the years.
I know how to get there. I’ll get there.
If humans invented God, He wouldn’t sound anything like the God of the Bible.
Why would we invent a God who:
- Tells us to deny ourselves
- Commands sexual restraint instead of indulgence
- Warns the rich, humbles the powerful, and exalts the meek
- Condemns pride, greed, and lust—the very things humans crave
- Holds every human accountable, including kings and priests
- Demands repentance instead of affirmation
If humans were the ventriloquists, the “dummy” would say:
“Do whatever feels good.”
“Power is yours—take it.”
“You answer to no one.”
But the God of the Bible does the opposite. He confronts us. He restrains us. He judges us. He calls us sinners and tells us to change.
Human-made gods look like humans with superpowers.
The biblical God looks like someone humans didn’t invent—and often wish they could silence.
That’s not a puppet.
That’s a mirror we didn’t ask for. He’s the one who will hold you accountable on judgment day. Before you meet him, I recommend you read this.
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