just knew with all the “breakup to makeups” that it wouldn’t last but i couldn’t leave. i didn’t know how. unreal that it took being thrown to the ground by an absolute monster that i love so much- but i’m so fucking glad it happened like that
stupid little fights with roland suck ASS when he’s 1500 kms up north and i can’t be mad at him in person. fuck he’s supposed to be gone 8 weeks and we’re almost 2 weeks in and i miss him so much it hurts ugh
kinda sad lmao i went full ghost mode today and seven hours into hiding, the only message i got was from my sister. it was nice to just disconnect though