I don’t think I’m just grieving a relationship. I think I’m grieving the future I finally allowed myself to believe in. The plans, the promises, the life I had already started envisioning. I wasn’t just losing someone I loved; I was mourning a life I genuinely thought was finally going to be mine.
i'm no longer wishing for you to love me back, i'm wishing for myself to stop loving you, to wake up without searching for the signs of you, to go through my days without hoping you'd come back, to finally choose myself the way i once chose you...