Having an affair, betraying someone, or living in a constant state of hiding something can only be done by someone in a deeply conflicted relationship with themselves. The chronic stress on your body from getting your story straight, and making sure you don’t get caught is self imposed harm. Heal and learn to love yourself so you don’t bring other people in to your own internal war. Heal and learn to love yourself so your body can know the health and peace that only comes from transparency.
You don't need to go to Disney world to experience mystery and magic in your life. Instead look for it in the most mundane everyday tasks. Maybe it's an interaction with a stranger. Maybe it's as simple as getting down to the same level as your children. Look and you will find