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oona, 32, they ☥ autistic, friendly, goth, atheist ☥ spiritually married to bill dauterive ☥ atticus ross supremacy truther 🔞=@illdauterive

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when people have adorable, “kawaii” and extremely decked out itabags for their anime faves and then you look over at yours and it’s just

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anyway I am signing off again, but as soon as I am able and have refunded everyone, I will come back to post about it. again I hope everyone is doing alright. I can’t tell you how guilty I feel for not being here even if that’s just the anxiety talking.

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my heart is beating so fast lmfao and that’s just by coming here. I promise it’s not Twitters fault or anyone who’s on here for that matter, my anxiety is just SOOO SO BAD and I really hope once my paycheck comes and I’m able to refund everyone I can come
back and not feel-

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so guilty and bad. I know I’m
not a bad person but it makes me feel physically sick not being able to fulfill what I am supposed to do and not only that but stay gone for so long and feel like I am letting everyone down.

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Okay, I’ve rambled enough. I’ll come back here regularly once I get my meds adjusted. I want to convey that I never want to hurt anyone even if it’s in the form of not shipping things timely. I’m trying to be a better person daily and I really feel like I’ve been a disappointment

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I’m tremendously stressed out right now (and have been for weeks) because my job lost my last paycheck and it completely threw a wrench in my life, to be quite honest with you. They’ve not given it to me yet and I am so so so sorry for not being here but I am just-

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I’ve tried getting better about shipping things off but since I am so dependent on others to take me to the post office, I think I just need to not sell anything physical from now on. I HATE letting people down.

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i’m hoping i can get my anxiety under control because honestly it’s ruining my life and it’s only getting worse.

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so sorry to pop in again after an absence! to everyone who bought a bag from me, i still haven’t sent them off due to not being able to get to the post office before it closes. i don’t drive and it’s hard for me to coax my mom into driving me without it being a big issue.

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sorry, this is a very disjointed thread haha. i jsut never hardly come here anymore. i really miss you all but i hope you understand that my anxiety is horrible and it’s not because i’m trying to avoid anyone or be a distant person.