ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`)

00s, she/her, bi ⋆｡˚· ˚♡ my diary (edtwt) 🏝🐚🌺🌊🐬🌈🥥🌴 tw: ed, sh, sui

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

☆ intro!!
☆ she/her, 24
☆ edtwt, venting, mentions of sh, alco etc
☆ sw: 59kg, ugw: 48-45kg
☆ ednos
☆ dnfi: nonedtwt, fatph0be, minors, basic dnfi criteria

will b posting meal, calorie, fast, workout tracking etc etc under this post （╹◡╹）♡

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

if im at home i can at least hide in baggy clothes and no one will see my body but that will b impossible and like i wanna wear cut outfits and take pics but i cant looking like this im so ashamed

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

ive ruined yet another vacation cuz of eating too fucking much and gaining a shit ton like my pants dont even fit me anymore why do i keep doing this to myself like i wont b able to lose enough in the short time till vacay

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

IVE GAINED SO MUCH WTF yet i cant stop drinking and eating and deinking and eating i hatw myself i need to restrict again

[ari @soobinsdih]

having an ed and knowing i’m not underweight while all of my irls are naturally thin is so humiliating

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

thighs hurt from sh but i want more but i also dont

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

im horrible im ugly im huge

[𝒌𝒂𝒊𝒕𝒍𝒚𝒏 ྀིྀི @kaitith]

all of you need to watch this is lowkey made me emotional but it’s so correct and explains how having an ed feels

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

had to get stiched up :// also accidentally cut my stomach cUZ ITS TOO FUCKIN BIG

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

tbh i wanna b put inpatient purely so someone can care for me

[reggiesmoker @bourneborneborn]

doomscrolling to ignore the fact that i want to kill myself

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

im so so so so so fat rn

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

i wanna c ut i wanna cu t helpme

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

im 2+ weeks from sh but god i wanna rn help

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

IM SO STUPID OMG i wanted to cu ta heart.. now im at docs waiting to get stitches 😐 not the nurse man recognizing me too UGH

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

i wanna CURTTTTTT

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

help

[ruby ♥(ﾉ´∀`) @bimbozero]

sh getting bad