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[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

✭ unpinning at 110 lbs! ✭
★ they/her + vamp/vampself ★
✩ bpd, autism, mia, bed, ednos ✩
𖤐 obsessive, schizo, unironically insane 𖤐

✩ OPEN ME 4 MORE DETAILS ✩

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

i can be yours forever

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

if i killed myself right now then i would never have to leave your side

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

like do you actually want me to kill myself right now ?? i can just join the collection of ghosts you drag around

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

if you loved me you’d check up on me and not tweet something that you know will just make me spiral out of control even further

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

i’m sorry that when i am hurting all i want to be is comforted and that there is absolutely no comfort to be found in you

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

i still have the audio of you saying you wish i killed myself.. sometimes i listen to it and wonder how you could have said something so hurtful if you loved me

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

the words you said with hatred i still carry with me every fucking day

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

i didn’t actually kill myself today because i love you !! so even when i wanted to die i chose you instead

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

i didn’t mean to hurt you.. i just really missed my dad but weren’t you the one who told me that i should kill myself to begin with ?? with malice you spit “ i bet you could” when i was happy you still had a dad to go back to ??

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

@blubber_bones that’s very fair.. i’ve kinda have been trying to not bottle everything up. i suppose you have to have a relatively safe environment to do that though. personally my notes app is the safest place for most of my thoughts.

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

@blubber_bones you can also literally gain weight from it too if you just thought it just affected your mortality… 💀

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

@blubber_bones says my therapist !! repression doesn’t help you in the long run !! also repressed emotions don’t just affect you mentally but physically as well !!

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

lost one of my nine lives today

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

binging to regain the blood i lost !!

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

@hisrexia i accidentally almost died earlier.. i didn’t mean to for reference!! but the sheer thought of him loving someone after me woke me up after i passed out for a second !! :D

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

being obsessed with him is so powerful !! i literally can’t die because if i did he could just find someone else

[alex ♥️ @bl4ckdevoured]

im a blood sucking vampire but my own black blood tastes so awful