Bleh

Unhappy. Unloved. Uninspired. Don’t know why I’m here. Commiseration? Overspeculation? Obliteration? Procrastination? Indetermination? 🧔‍♂️🏳️‍🌈

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

I promise I *am* fun and not always like my account may lead you to believe. This is my #outlet, though.

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

When you left, how did you leave?

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

@Ilovetalkin I’m sorry for your going through all that. Thank you for your words! And yes to dm!

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

How did you know it was time to leave?

#help #divorce #breakup #divorcee #heartbreak #heartbroken

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

@jaredisnumb If he wants the moon I’m launching him there to the dark side with no way to get back.

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

@Ilovetalkin I need to leave. But I’ve always been the have a plan in place kinda person. And I don’t have that. But when enough becomes enough…

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

@Ilovetalkin Thank you so much. I know this is an old and common tale. It’s just hard to figure out and make sense of it. I’m in the middle of a big life changing move, going back to school. And I’m finding out my main support system is a fcking asshole and a liar.

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

A sick part of me wants to see how this all plays out. We have a trip to Europe planned in a few months. I’m going to get thru that & then if I decide to leave him, tell him on the plane back. I’ll strategically start organizing my stuff to peace the fck out of this toxic place

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

🤞🤞🤞

[Kevin @yorkiepud76]

Normalise feeling utterly broken and admitting it. Things will get brighter 🤞

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

I caught him in a lie. I asked questions, not letting on that I knew it was a lie, and he just kept digging down deeper, trying to deflect and redirect. It was kinda pathetic, actually.

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

@19860512Yeah That’s… that’s how I’m feeling. I want better. I can have better. I feel like my soul is stagnant. I’m trapped in this life. I can’t expect him to change, so I need to change. And that may mean saying goodbye.

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

@19860512Yeah Your response really means a lot to me. I feel like I’m just vomiting words and feelings into a black hole. It’s nice to know someone is listening. Even just a little.

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

I have no one to talk to.

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

It hurts so much.

[Robert Lindsay @RobertLindsay]

Couldn’t this man be our leader please?

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

#wouldyoustay

[Louise Liddon @male_psychology]

'Marital separation quadruples the risk of male suicide'

New interview study confirms that when men transition out of relationships (separation & divorce), they are at increased risk of mental illness, including anxiety, depression and suicide.
https://t.co/vFgXmaRYkz

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

I’m at work but my mind is not. It’s off wandering the multiverse.

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

What do you do when you love your husband but don’t trust him (he’s lied plenty about big and small things) and don’t want to give him your all. What happens when you stop saying “I love you” and deflect when he says those words? I guess it’s not love after all. #disillusioned

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

Sometimes I just want to cry. #crying #sad #anxiety #AnxiousPeople #depressed

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

I guess this is a reason I’m here — at least I can speak into the void, keep a digital journal. Maybe someone will even connect with me. #lonely #AloneTogether

[Bleh @blehblahblee]

I feel like I have no one to talk to. No bestie to spill all. My husband is no longer that person. He bitches about me to his own bestie. He talks more openly to him than me. So I’m shutting my partner out. I don’t trust him to hold my heart, to be my teammate.