Blessy Augustine

living the lie

[Blessy Augustine @blessyaugust]

Today is floor day. Just me lying on the floor with three inner demons and the families they've gone on to have.

[Blessy Augustine @blessyaugust]

I am very aware that I suffer for no good reason, but it doesn't lessen the suffering whatsoever

[Blessy Augustine @blessyaugust]

"Throughout history" kids are back. Maybe I should do a module on explaining what history is...

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Grading, grading, grading in the morning, grading in the noon time, grading when the sun goes down #CatholicSchoolCoreMemory

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The loneliness of one rewriting a draft

[Blessy Augustine @blessyaugust]

Guys, if you take the non-drowsy cough syrup and the non-drowsy antihistamine together, it's like you don't need coffee anymore

[Blessy Augustine @blessyaugust]

Have to make a vegetarian Xmas meal and my brain is frozen. There's sadya food and there's meat, absolutely no in-between veg dishes I can think of

[Blessy Augustine @blessyaugust]

As a kid/teen/young adult every time I wanted something or wanted to go some place, my dad would say that I can ask my future husband all this

[Blessy Augustine @blessyaugust]

Doc, therapist, chiro, massage therapist said I need to go off sugar and dairy to manage symptoms. I haven't eaten cake in months and now I'm dreading Xmas because I want cake, I miss cake, I miss my brain making little spark of joy when I eat cake, I hate people who can eat cake

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@jagritichandra Sharing my trick... Select 30-min exercise videos before hand, get up in the morning, have your tea (no food) and exercise to one video before your brain has a chance to process anything.

I have a gym downstairs but if I have to change clothes to exercise I have lost all will

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This Canadian-Italian friend of mine just found out that many Indian men get out of long-term relationships and immediately have arranged marriages. She's screaming in my face asking me what that is about...

So far my response has been: Have you met men?

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@tetisheri Yeah I can see that. I can't imagine Christianity devoid of guilt and self-loathing but apparently that is a strictly Catholic enterprise

[Blessy Augustine @blessyaugust]

@tetisheri I dunno... I imagine the broken people God chooses have inner monologues and at least a tinge of self-loathing. That is the Christian way

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Phenomenologists discovering my phenomenology...

[Blessy Augustine @blessyaugust]

Had an insane craniosacral therapy session today. This 50-yr-old man cradled my nape with one hand, moved my jaw with the other and very matter-of-factly declared, "You've never felt safe, have you." Yeah, I burst out crying.

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Almost all my students start their essays with "Throughout history..." and then write about stuff that has barely had any history

[Blessy Augustine @blessyaugust]

Reading some social science papers... There are mathematical equations for the "tendency for racism" and indices for "avoiding responsibility"
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I feel like I owe amends to Derrida.

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verge of breakdown but too many deadlines. so i'm rescheduling breakdown. hope it works.

[Blessy Augustine @blessyaugust]

There are emails to which I want replies and then there are emails I write because I have to and the email sounds like I want a reply but I actually really, really do not want a reply

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Everyone is discussing toxic workplaces and toxic bosses... my ex-colleagues and I are virtually giving each other side glances... boy, do we know someone