Crickette

Literally blind, queer, fandom auntie. Have my shots. Lovely. Heartbreaking. A bit rubbish❤️ Nebula of nonsense 🌌

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[Crickette @blind_bombshell]

Okay, apparently I pissed off some Drag Race fans when I was speaking, broadly, that AuDHD people are having a bad time in a fascism

Sorry, I don't know the context and have deleted my comment cuz I didn't know what it was about 🤷‍♀️

[Crickette @blind_bombshell]

It's Girl Scout Cookie season!

This year, I'm buying some from Troop 6000 in NYC, it's comprised entirely of children in poverty, some unhoused

They also have a cookie donation program; they go to City Harvest which helps feed low income New Yorkers

https://t.co/10jWov1sSC

[Crickette @blind_bombshell]

It's Girl Scout Cookie season!

This year, I'm buying some from Troop 6000 in NYC, it's comprised entirely of children in poverty, some unhoused

They also have a cookie donation program; they go to City Harvest which helps feed low income New Yorkers

https://t.co/10jWov1sSC

[Crickette @blind_bombshell]

@BananaBoyGabe Oh yes, it was a very very long time ago for both of us 😂

Sweet Josie, am I like the Aunt you only see on high holy days but always has some weird lore drop 😂

I also had an Italian lover beg me to stay on Florence when I studied abroad, I feel like that's fun 🤔

[Crickette @blind_bombshell]

In '08-09, I had a big-to-me YouTube channel where I opened packages and talked about whatever was sent to me as though it was a gift from someone important. Think like Carrot Top but a half blind woman in her crappy little apartment.

I nuked it from orbit in late '09/'10--

[Arin Hanson @egoraptor]

This clip is a great example of why I didn't want to continue making Sequelitis.

I had an interest in game design, and I had an interest in publicly talking about it, but my thing was comedy, and cartoons. So that's how I did the show... as a cartoon comedy. My schtick was loud characters, and chaotic shouting. Every topic in Sequelitis was shouted at full volume. Every little design choice I thought was smart was "fucking genius" and every minor annoyance I had was a full on meltdown rant. Some things I complained about didn't even piss me off, I just thought they were interesting to bring up. But I exaggerated them for the sake of comedy because I didn't really know how to make them funny otherwise.

And I'm sure because I was young and insecure, I had a morbid desire to shake things up... Ocarina was an untouchable game, a 10/10 across the board, and I think being provocative about that appealed to me back then, too. But I love Ocarina. I grew up with it. I genuinely did want to have a discussion about the things that didn't age well, because I think that's interesting. I think we can learn a lot from that. But I dunno... I just don't think I felt confident enough to talk about it with the appropriate tone, so I hid behind what I knew: a cartoon character that shouts.

This carried into Game Grumps... I had been doing Game Grumps for like 3 years when I released the Zelda video. I think the lines blurred for the audience because at that point I was "Arin Hanson," not Egoraptor. But Arin on Game Grumps is also a character. If I'm getting frustrated and shouting at a game on the show, it's for the bit. It's a show. Heightened emotions. And the go-to bit for me was saying "this game sucks, it's bad" and going on rants. The intent was to play the buffoon. But I think people just thought that was me.

And that's fine. I don't blame them. It is "me," there's always some truth behind that sort of stuff. And I think it was extra confusing because I WOULD just be normal sometimes on the show. But you may notice recently I've very deliberately changed how I handle those bombastic moments on Grumps, where I point the finger inward now. "I suck, I messed up, I can't believe I didn't see that, what an idiot, etc." I just didn't like the bad energy I was putting out there. I hated that people saw me that way. It disturbed me that people told me "wow, you're actually really nice" all surprised when they met me in person, as if they assumed I'd rip their head off.

And look, I'm not gunna pretend I'm an angel on the show now, the schtick of "buffoon that is easily angered" comes very easy to me when I'm performing, so I still utilize it constantly. But I usually find a way to channel it inward and be the butt of the joke, instead of just radiating it outward. It's funnier that way.

I think I just assumed this was all obvious. You see how I tweet. You've seen interviews. I don't talk like I do on the show, or in my cartoons. I like being supportive of people and I like discussing things. I don't shout in my normal life. So when I see people characterizing me as this idiot who has no patience and sucks at playing Zelda... it sounds so silly but it just honest to goodness hurts my feelings sometimes. I love game design! I love video games! But, I get it. All you can see of me in my shows and cartoons is this loudmouth asshole who says your favorite game sucks. Like, fuck that guy, right? I think that's valid. I think you're right to feel that way. I think I was playing fast and loose with this character and I was being flippant about how frustrated it made people. I regret that.

I suppose I should have thicker skin about this. And yeah... it feels so benign in the grand scheme of things. Who cares if people are circulating an 11 year old clip from a cartoon I made and saying "wow this guy's a moron." It shouldn't matter. Why should I care? But I guess I just have to admit that I do care sometimes, and it just kinda bums me out. I cared a lot about game design back then. It wasn't as prevalent as it is now. It was all dry GDC talks (which are, of course, wonderful). I found it really exciting to bring game design to light in a fun way for people that don't usually think about it. I hope I succeeded in that. But if I could go back, I think the in-your-face hyperbolic know-it-all character would go the way of the dodo. I suspect that aspect of it may have done some harm for game design discourse. And that sucks.

For the record, the waiting in Ocarina barely frustrates me. I think it's appropriate at times. The game feeling larger and more cinematic just kind of lends itself to moments of pause. Enemies are more sparse so making them "last longer" just kind of makes sense. Did I feel this way back then? I'm sure I did feel stronger that "waiting" was more frustrating... but not to the level in this clip, by any means. That's just being young and insecure, I guess. I felt like I had to beat my chest in order for anyone to listen or be interested in what I had to say.

[Crickette @blind_bombshell]

This post reminded me of the end of Hannah Gadsby's "Nanette" when she realizes that her self-esteem and career go hand-in-hand, and she decides to stop doing the self-critical jokes

We're all doing the best we can with what we have, progressively getting better as we learn 🩷

[Arin Hanson @egoraptor]

This clip is a great example of why I didn't want to continue making Sequelitis.

I had an interest in game design, and I had an interest in publicly talking about it, but my thing was comedy, and cartoons. So that's how I did the show... as a cartoon comedy. My schtick was loud characters, and chaotic shouting. Every topic in Sequelitis was shouted at full volume. Every little design choice I thought was smart was "fucking genius" and every minor annoyance I had was a full on meltdown rant. Some things I complained about didn't even piss me off, I just thought they were interesting to bring up. But I exaggerated them for the sake of comedy because I didn't really know how to make them funny otherwise.

And I'm sure because I was young and insecure, I had a morbid desire to shake things up... Ocarina was an untouchable game, a 10/10 across the board, and I think being provocative about that appealed to me back then, too. But I love Ocarina. I grew up with it. I genuinely did want to have a discussion about the things that didn't age well, because I think that's interesting. I think we can learn a lot from that. But I dunno... I just don't think I felt confident enough to talk about it with the appropriate tone, so I hid behind what I knew: a cartoon character that shouts.

This carried into Game Grumps... I had been doing Game Grumps for like 3 years when I released the Zelda video. I think the lines blurred for the audience because at that point I was "Arin Hanson," not Egoraptor. But Arin on Game Grumps is also a character. If I'm getting frustrated and shouting at a game on the show, it's for the bit. It's a show. Heightened emotions. And the go-to bit for me was saying "this game sucks, it's bad" and going on rants. The intent was to play the buffoon. But I think people just thought that was me.

And that's fine. I don't blame them. It is "me," there's always some truth behind that sort of stuff. And I think it was extra confusing because I WOULD just be normal sometimes on the show. But you may notice recently I've very deliberately changed how I handle those bombastic moments on Grumps, where I point the finger inward now. "I suck, I messed up, I can't believe I didn't see that, what an idiot, etc." I just didn't like the bad energy I was putting out there. I hated that people saw me that way. It disturbed me that people told me "wow, you're actually really nice" all surprised when they met me in person, as if they assumed I'd rip their head off.

And look, I'm not gunna pretend I'm an angel on the show now, the schtick of "buffoon that is easily angered" comes very easy to me when I'm performing, so I still utilize it constantly. But I usually find a way to channel it inward and be the butt of the joke, instead of just radiating it outward. It's funnier that way.

I think I just assumed this was all obvious. You see how I tweet. You've seen interviews. I don't talk like I do on the show, or in my cartoons. I like being supportive of people and I like discussing things. I don't shout in my normal life. So when I see people characterizing me as this idiot who has no patience and sucks at playing Zelda... it sounds so silly but it just honest to goodness hurts my feelings sometimes. I love game design! I love video games! But, I get it. All you can see of me in my shows and cartoons is this loudmouth asshole who says your favorite game sucks. Like, fuck that guy, right? I think that's valid. I think you're right to feel that way. I think I was playing fast and loose with this character and I was being flippant about how frustrated it made people. I regret that.

I suppose I should have thicker skin about this. And yeah... it feels so benign in the grand scheme of things. Who cares if people are circulating an 11 year old clip from a cartoon I made and saying "wow this guy's a moron." It shouldn't matter. Why should I care? But I guess I just have to admit that I do care sometimes, and it just kinda bums me out. I cared a lot about game design back then. It wasn't as prevalent as it is now. It was all dry GDC talks (which are, of course, wonderful). I found it really exciting to bring game design to light in a fun way for people that don't usually think about it. I hope I succeeded in that. But if I could go back, I think the in-your-face hyperbolic know-it-all character would go the way of the dodo. I suspect that aspect of it may have done some harm for game design discourse. And that sucks.

For the record, the waiting in Ocarina barely frustrates me. I think it's appropriate at times. The game feeling larger and more cinematic just kind of lends itself to moments of pause. Enemies are more sparse so making them "last longer" just kind of makes sense. Did I feel this way back then? I'm sure I did feel stronger that "waiting" was more frustrating... but not to the level in this clip, by any means. That's just being young and insecure, I guess. I felt like I had to beat my chest in order for anyone to listen or be interested in what I had to say.

[Crickette @blind_bombshell]

Sometimes I miss it, I wish I could see the girl I was and what the content actually Was; not just what I thought it was/remember it to be

All that to say, I love Arin's work. I hope he stops beating himself up cuz he doesn't deserve that 🩷🖖

[Crickette @blind_bombshell]

I did some sketches, some music in addition to the package opening things. I sent Todrick Hall my last $20 for gas once, I shared gripes with Hannah Hart...

And then I got doxxed and people sent me links to where my content was being used on disability-fet forums -

[Bendy @Bendy]

Happy #Bendyversary !! 🖤🎉
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#BENDY #BATIM #BATDR #BLW

[Crickette @blind_bombshell]

Tim, I have been taking care of my bed-bound mother, full-time, 24/7, for three years and the government pays me 8hr/week for doing it and says they're tapped out on funding

Maybe we can do something for stay-at-home caregivers, giving them a living wage, how about that?

[Governor Tim Walz @GovTimWalz]

We’re one month into Minnesota’s nation-leading paid leave program, and families are already seeing the benefit.

In Minnesota, we stand by the workers who drive our economy - whether you’re welcoming a new baby or taking care of a sick family member.

[DAEAC#Ethie @EmoEthie]

For the love of god destroy your ring doorbell

[Crickette @blind_bombshell]

Re: Epstein Files

"Underage women" are children
Even if they were capable of giving consent, they cannot
"Sex" with someone who cannot consent, is RAPE

The only jokes to be made about this is, about how much of a loser Ketamine Ken is; P3DOS don't even wanna do CRIMES with him

[Jamarrius @YungxJayy]

Keith Porter’s murder wasn’t captured on camera, so it’s allowing ICE to sweep it under the rug, but we need to keep talking about him just as much as we talk about Renee Good and Alex Pretti. None of us are safe from this campaign of state violence.

[Crickette @blind_bombshell]

@Tim_Walz @GovTimWalz I'm sure you've already thought of this and you're worried about backlash, but can I suggest such a thing and also blocking them from buying WAREHOUSES to put citizens in? Just an idea, food for thought

[Brian Allen @allenanalysis]

BREAKING: Philadelphia just drew a hard line on ICE. They have INTRODUCED legislation to rein in ICE.

- Agents can’t wear masks
- Must show ID
- Judicial warrants only
- Assault a bystander → arrested

This is what accountability looks like. This isn’t law yet, but it’s the blueprint. Pass it. Enforce it. Take it nationwide.

[ejpuki @Ejpuki]

#melvi

[Melanie D'Arrigo @DarrigoMelanie]

If you think they’re building more detention facilities, increasing mass surveillance, and growing the size of ICE just to deport undocumented immigrants, then you haven’t been paying attention.

Continuing to fund ICE is enabling what we all know is coming next.

[✶ Sacrifical Lamb ✶ @JesterJuicee]

Valentine’s Day is right around the corner. What are you going to get that special someone?

👼💝🎀🏹

More info below 🧵💖

[death angel @angel_0f_deathx]

The billionaire class wants you impoverished, unable to buy a home, and working yourself to death for their bottom line, while also expecting you to birth children for them to exploit and sexually abuse. You can’t make me care about what someone on SNAP buys to feed their family

[The Yeti of Kananaskis @kananaskinyeti]

If masks don’t work why do astronauts wear them? Either they don’t know what they are doing or you don’t. Know who I’d bet on?