@Strange_Pugalo The past and the future are all in your head. Only the now is real. Of course to say purely « carpe diem » would be an innate mistake of short sightedness but it would certainly be a venture of optimism as well. I would add something more tactful, alas my eloquence eludes me.
I think a tragic honorable death which leaves some kind of memento mori for my beloved whom my relationship with had not yet been tainted by overt physicality is the only way I’ll feel love.Since once it becomes a matter of desire all love fizzles out and nothing isleft but shame
Lieutenant Hoffmillers attempted suicide and the way he planned it was very similar to what I was thinking. Probably why he’s one of my favorite characters in literature. Beware of Pity is a book I read two years ago and it’s still fresh in my mind. Not sure why even.
Bitches be like « I’ve had STERILE bodily liquids dispensed in my mouth by dudes therefore I gotta be a fuckass nasty bitch and don’t wash my fruits. Did I mention I’m a whore yet? » killing squads for whores now