ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟

꒰ •sbmi: 25.4 ⊹ cbmi: 16.2 ⊹ ugbmi: 13.7• ꒱ ⠀ ⠀ ࿏1͓̽.͓̽6͓̽0͓̽c͓̽m͓̽࿏

☆ •sw: 65 | cw: 41.5 | gw1: 40 | gw2:38 | ugw: 35• ☆

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

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° lil' archive of my accountability threads‹𝟹
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࿏ i'll keep updating dis whenever i make a new one .ᐟ𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟

⋆｡‧˚ʚ #edtwt only ɞ˚‧｡⋆

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

@Larryzjg did u knw how to read dumbass

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

2morrow ill go buy the scalpel thing i saw at the pharmacy
i have 2 boxs full of sleeping pills, about 7 boxs of benzodiazepine, 50 beta blocker pills, about 10 boxs of multiples antidepressants, iv opiod, and ofc i have many antiemetic medications so i wont b able to throw up

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

another year another rape for ilia i want to rip my skin off nd die

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

whats fucking wrong w me

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

4:20am and i barely even remember the night like i remember maybe 1/5 of it i though id die in the streets

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

i did smth so stupid im actually so reckless and immature

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

@zerosinyourhead ((((((me secretly screenshotting nd saving all ur face reveal posts)))))))

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

@cupcakes4cals lov u. (˶˘ ³˘(´͈ ᵕ `)⸝‘♡

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

did a quick search on these beta blockers my doctor gave me n apparently they lower ur bpm AND slow ur heart down umm..,

so,, if i take the whole box,, logically it'll stop my heart,,, they so dumb they never should've given me that + opioids bc now i have enough meds to kms

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

@sarahjaneholand i want the corner pweaaaaz;3333

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

ilia loves u all sm oomfies,,, im trying hard

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

@pienllw hiiyaa!!.!.

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

@mimicakees owHh dat picture is soooooo pwettyy:0oo

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

@cupcakes4cals dont worry it will alll be okay‹𝟹

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

@yeoubiii444alt thks alot for ur words thats very kind of u anna.,,but i dunno i think they wouldn't want me to suffer that much
i dont live anymore i just survive,everythin hurts since iwas a child nd it will never get better imo
i just want the pain to stop but that cant happen so yea

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

i am so chubby and full of fat im so repulsive i should die to stop being quch a fkin burden i belong w my friends who passed away i wanna b with them ill meet dem soon

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

ilia bought dis tday at the pharmacy!! :3
loook he cutiemini i lov it im so happy yipiyip ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

she also checked my bpm and apparently i have an arrhythmia,? like my heart beats way too fast and then sometimes the beats slow down and kinda "skip" so she prescribed me beta blockers…,, i also got tramadol and lormetazepam yayyy (o^^o)

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

just got home from my doctor's apt nd she told me i've lost even more weight since the last time nd dat it was getting really concerning.,, (ദ്ദി˙ᗜ˙)

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

just got home from my doctor's apt nd she told me i've lost even more weight since the last time nd dat it was getting really concerning.,, (ദ്ദി˙ᗜ˙)

[ilia ̆̈.ᐟ.ᐟ ʚf s̷h̷e̷d̷t̷w̷t݁ 𖾕𖾝꙼ᩚ𛲕𖾟 @blythevoid]

5:15pm AND IM FINALLY HOME PFEWWW