gw gatau kondisi lu gimana karena lu tbtb ngilang? ngeghosting gw as kadept lu? dan lu blg kaya gt di forum? gw gatau maksud lu gmn tapi di pendengaran gw itu jadi kayak gw yg jahat dari pov lu? and it is still. haunting. me.
jgn tbtb nge-blame org lain yg notabenenya org itu ngga ngerti keadaan lu yg ga lu umbar itu… tbtb ngeframing kaya gt kan kesannya secara g langsung lu blg kalo gw jd salah satu alasan lu suicidal…
idk why but i feel like mi dad has been nicer to me since im home ??? IDK LIKE U TELL ME WHYD HE HANDED ME THOSE UTILITIES?? WHYD HE SUDDENLY BOUGHT ME A BUNCH OF SWEETS WO ME ASKIN FIRST?? WHY WHAT HOW
this gets at exactly why writing about this issue took so much out of me. reading about what women have endured was already difficult, but trying to write through it while reckoning with my own experience made the process considerably heavier. here are some of the things i wrote: