Nervous Nellie 🐰

Mom/wife, bpd(dx), social phobia(dx), recovering victim of a narcissist. This is my anon acct for venting. I do NOT post self harm pics or follow any1 who does

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

Hello I'm back

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

My followers = 753 royal assholes

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

Wow you all fucking suck. Fuck you, eat dicks, hope not one person says anything to you next time you're suicidal. Bye.

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

Can someone just tell me you care about my existence

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

At least I haven't cut today

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

So it's my birthday and it's been shitty as hell lol I feel like Eeyore

Happy fuckin birthday to me

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

Wow I haven't been on here in a while

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

@colourmeworthy OK? but this has been an ongoing pattern of my life for over a decade and a half sooooooooooooo yeah most people don't have bpd. I do. Most people don't self harm either... She said it like she didn't believe my diagnosis... She doesn't know me

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

I spit out the words "I have borderline personality disorder" to my midwife asking for help and this bitch has the audacity to say "most people fit the criteria for that at some point in their lives" ?? ? ???

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

Sorry if my tweets about SH have triggered anyone. This is my place to vent about things I can't tell anyone IRL. Please unfollow if you think I might cause you to stumble. I care more about your safety than having more followers

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

@BPDPrime I have a long standing prescription, however, I need a refill and I'm pregnant so that's the rub. I'm going to ask anyway but I expect to get turned down due to being pregnant. :( I read it's safe for occasional use but Dr might see it as a liability issue.

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

I still haven't found a way to get Xanax. I've asked so many people and struck out. I need that safety net. Otherwise all I have is cutting

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

I had ordered scalpels that were supposed to be delivered today but the shipment got delayed so I guess that's more divine intervention

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

Planned to clean today but instead I've been in bed all day. Typical. I'm a failure.

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

If you're not gonna help me then fuck you

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

@tonatiuh100 Family time is a problem when my husband is working 50-55 hours a week :'(

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

Haven't been doing so great. Anxiety is consuming my life. :-\

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

Almost out of xanax and had to seriously seek a DRUG DEALER today trying to find some. I only take them for crises but I am pregnant so I know a Dr. won't prescribe even though I feel the anxiety and self destruction is WAY more harmful to the baby. Can't afford to see Dr. anyway

[Nervous Nellie 🐰 @borderlinepr0bs]

@tonatiuh100 Taking my meds, brushing my teeth.........that's about it... :-\

[soph!! @earthlysoph]

i want to stop existing for a while but not in like a suicidal way just in like a ‘i need such a long and undisturbed rest that the only possible way is for me to leave this planet for like 48 hours’