The.transexperience

Hi, my name is Berlin. I’d like to share my journey as I recover from my bottom surgery. A small diary of my healing progress. To educate and share.

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

@thegirlfriendxo My surgery journey can be found here https://t.co/yxlQlp178u

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

Still a bit scarred up but I shaved today and I love the way she looks

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

So it’s just over a month since my bottom surgery! This is what she looks like today. Keep in mind I still can’t shave my lower half until I enter 2nd month post op which is Tuesday 🎉 also she a bit beat up still but miles ahead of what she was 2 weeks ago!

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

So I’ve been a bit spotty with my Twitter. Tbh I’m trying to gain control of chaos as I stay in an air bnb and I need to find a routine to maintain my rearranged private parts. It’s been hard being alone and trying to take care of myself . Something I never thought I’d say.

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

My first day out of the after care home. I am wiped. I thought I could go to the pharmaprix and pick up supplies to take care but 40 minutes walking was too much for my body. I’m lying in bed now waiting for food. Tomorrow I will be smarter and keep resting and icing.

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

I peed out of my vagina for the first time today it was so weird and actually easy, just sprayed though which was kinda gross but I mean she’s fresh. #bottomsurgery

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

I will continue to douche after ever dilation to flush out the lube etc

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

Vaginal douching is just as annoying as anal douching. #bottomsurgery

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

@viraj_madawa Hmmm?

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

I had my stint removed today. What a weird sensation and to be pulled out from that part of my body 🤯 I begin dilation now!

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

Honestly Dilation takes a lot of time.
In total roughly 2 hours each time. 4 x a day . It’s legit a full time job right now. But like every new employee , I��m on my best behaviour so fingers crossed I don’t get too comfortable and slack off. This is what my days look like…

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

Dilating day 2 was off to a good start, was scared because there was 12 hours between my last dilation that this morning would be difficult but it wasn’t too bad.

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

So dilating day 1 is a success. Uncomfortable yes. Terrible no. Proud I got the biggest one in that’s a good sign. Ultimately width can be gained or restored. Depth can’t, so always making sure it goes and hits the back wall of my vaginal cavity!

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

Today my roommate and I connected!I’m so happy! I think most people don’t realize, outside of performing and hosting, I’m really shy. I was a wreck all week always crying or in pain, thought I was the worst roommate and embarrassed to reach out. But we both love DRAG!!! ❤️

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

Okay so my first dilation was a success , super easy! Yes a bit uncomfortable. But far less uncomfortable and completely painless compared to what the last week as been for me! I’m ready to conquer the world!

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

Regardless of the hardships this week had for me I finally can say it was all worth it. Tomorrow I get my stint out and hopefully my catheter. The moment I saw my body and saw my vagina, I broke. Because for the first time I didn’t hate my body.

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

Today was a roller coaster of emotions. My bandages came off but because of my blood clot I began bleeding AGAIN and was forced to lay in bed and ice instead of taking my shower. The bandage removal was gross the blood clot was huge and resembled canned cranberry sauce.

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

I just stood in front of a mirror and I just saw my body and my vagina for the first time. I’m so beautiful. I’ve never felt so beautiful. For the first time in this ordeal I can look at all my pain and say it was worth it. Im so beautiful, I’m so happy.

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

Today I get my bandages taken off. I am so excited!

[The.transexperience @botomsurgery101]

Tomorrow I will get my “lobster tail” (a common nickname for this bandage) taken off. GOOD BYE. But the real kicker is, I will get to see my Vagina for the first time. Granted she will still be sewn shut with a stint inside and a catheter but it’s progress!