Do you hate me, for being so forward, for being so brave and loud and for taking up so much space between us. I held your hands when you didn't understand and we got to a place where you understood. You understood me.
the worst part is how boring it all is. like the same thing repeatedly. and im so reasonable. lol. the thing is its a dead end street isnt it. i really let myself think that life was starting. like, this time for sure. but its all false promises.