I can’t stop thinking about my attempt coming up, it brings me so much peace. It soothes me so much to know that soon I won’t have to deal with this anymore.
it’s really hard for me to explain, but boredom is extremely dangerous for someone like me. idk if it’s the bpd or what, but the longer i’m bored, the riskier it is to leave me alone and the more likely it is that i’ll get irritable. that’s why i cannot handle being bored