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TW // Vent account

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Can we talk about the fact that although emotions fluctuate often with BPD, the current emotional experience feels life-long and when negative, is too crippling to cope with regardless of the knowledge that it will pass?!

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Has anyone ever reached a point in life where they feel content and stable?

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I can’t be mental anymore I don’t have the energy my thoughts are 254 per minute and I’m so drained please tell me how people do this

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@justanatherone I just don’t want to never have my highs because then I’ll have no enjoyable times

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Please can people let me know their experiences of lamotrigine? Good and bad

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@justanatherone Amazing. This is great for you and also gives me some hope. Thank you.

[🫧 jade 🫧 @flyingawxy]

it’s okay to grieve losses of all kinds. grieve the years you lost to mental health, the memories you missed out on, the person you wanted to be, the person you thought you were, people who you thought would be there forever. all losses hurt, and grief is a valid reaction 🤍

[🫧 jade 🫧 @flyingawxy]

I feel like people sometimes see BPD as this cute quirk and it gets romanticised when in reality, there is NOTHING cute about having an illness that is so complex and intricate, that presents in over 200 different ways, & that makes every day feel like the worst heartbreak

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Literally

[🫧 jade 🫧 @flyingawxy]

I really want to start being more positive but how can I do that when I’m chronically mentally ill and suicidal?

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Okay but people who haven’t done therapy (esp DBT) mostly can’t fucking communicate and are extremely interpersonally INEFFECTIVE. Goodbye.

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@powdersnow_bpd Surely?

[🫧 jade 🫧 @flyingawxy]

I want to buy stuff so I can have 3 seconds of serotonin

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Does anyone who’s done DBT feel like skills in interpersonal effectiveness have just made them a dick and they liked themselves more when they didn’t say no to people etc? Bc now I’m just paranoid about what people are thinking of me for speaking up

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@flyingawxy When I’m feeling rubbish often chocolate or cookies are all that will motivate me to get up, with coffee, a small high maybe. Or like a reward. Then I’ll probs go back to bed.

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Unwell, tired, unsupported me is suuuuuuuuch a bitch. I’m literally draining myself with my negativity but I can’t stop bc nothing seems to matter

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Anyone else just sleep, eat til they can’t move, and then sleep again? I do this a lot when I’m depressed. I read somewhere it’s a type 2 bipolar thing but maybe just depression in general

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It’s extremely hard not to seek comfort in the person who broke you when they’re the only person offering it

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@alxneandsad Absolutely this. Yes. It’s crazy isn’t it. I tried explaining this to his dad so many times and he just never ever got it. It’s bizarre to me that you wouldn’t feel this naturally. He’s a narcissist, so there we go 🤷🏼‍♀️

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Do I have any single mums on here?

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@alxneandsad I really admire that you still have faith in men of any sort bc I definitely don’t. And I feel you on all of the above. It’s so exhausting, but equally my son is all that keeps me going. I’m just scared of burnout bc of the BPD/bipolar with the lack of rest with a baby

[sarah @heavenbrat]

i hope u find a love that feels easy, that doesn’t confuse u, that considers u and always puts u first