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[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

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19 | she | college student
bed | bpd | 155cm
sh recovery 1/1/25 | high hw/sw
dni -15 | im also on / interact w . . .
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[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

i wanna be active again but before that i need to cleanse my whole account. i cant interact with shtwt anymore, ive been in recov for over a year and i still get triggered when i see it so. prolly gonna unmoot shtwt accounts :( and my old embarrassing posts need to go too

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

logged onto this account for the first time in ages and the first thing i see on my tl is horrible uncensored sh. ok i remember why i dont come on here often anymore

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

logged onto this account for the first time in ages and the first thing i see on my tl is horrible uncensored sh. ok i remember why i dont come on here often anymore

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

@nymfettes theyre literally acting dense on purpose its ridiculous

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

ive been tweaking all day and pushing my boyfriend away for no reason i feel horrible

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

idm interacting with shtwt despite being in recovery but for some reason twitter LOVES not censoring pics that were 100% posted censored. the hide button is right there and it doesnt work. like wtf

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

like actually why did she say that ik im fat but girl you have 3 days left to live shut the hell up

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

yesterday my bf's family made dinner and my bf asked them to set some aside for me because hes sweet and wants me to eat good food and then his fucking grandmother was like "what, she cant starve for 10 minutes?" lmaoo ooookay im gonna hang myself tn

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

@PrincelyED_3 @connorxeet i have the same exact scale !! so far its the most accurate/consistent one ive used ^_^

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

like i so desperately want to vent about my problems but im fat and have a binge ed so ik im gonna get stoned to death its scary and its why ive been so hesitant to come back

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

how it feels to be on here if you arent anorexic or underweight

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

i hate edtwt

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

i hate edtwt

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

i wonder if theres an actual correlation between the winter time and relapsing with a restrictive ed.... it definitely isnt because of seasonal depression, im plenty depressed in the summer too, but something about late fall and winter always makes me want to relapse

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

i dunno if itd be easier to try and revive this account or just start new 🥀 been YEARS since i was active consistently. i was a junior-senior in hs and im a sophomore in college now

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

ive been trying so hard to keep a healthy mindset about losing the weight i gained from binging but i literally cant its impossible i dont know how to lose weight without relapsing back to a restrictive ed. its one extreme to another every year im tired

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

hey guys ive been inactive for like 5 months and even before that i havent rlly been active for over a year but 😇😇😇 its Me im back and im relapsing because my bed got out of control again. gained 85 lbs from my lw and so far ive lost 40 of it but it isnt enough

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

hey guys ive been inactive for like 5 months and even before that i havent rlly been active for over a year but 😇😇😇 its Me im back and im relapsing because my bed got out of control again. gained 85 lbs from my lw and so far ive lost 40 of it but it isnt enough

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

i’ll never be pretty but i still need to try my hardest to be

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

i have horrible depression year round but it tends to be worse in the winter and i think it triggers binging much more frequently. the nice warm weather motivates me and reminds me how much i hate myself because i can’t wear cute summer outfits like other girls because i’m fat

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

everyone says it’s easier to starve in the winter but personally it’s so much easier for me to restrict in the summer

[marlboro silver @bpdloving]

everyone says it’s easier to starve in the winter but personally it’s so much easier for me to restrict in the summer