shami .

shedtwt diary :: drunkorexic doll || cw38 gw33kg

[shami . @brainrotterr]

spending all night drinking and cutting is so fun until you sleep in 'til 4pm and wake up aching everywhere. Ugh

[shami . @brainrotterr]

@your__ironlung HA damn real question is if he's js a sadist or a persecutor then 😭😭

[shami . @brainrotterr]

looking at photos of when i was 36kg/80~ lbs js makes me want to lower my ugw bc why were my legs still so fat?? maybe 74 *isnt* the perfect weight

[shami . @brainrotterr]

officially back down to the weight where im fucking freezing and have bone chills in 24c weather.. maybe finally weighing myself will help me ignore the pain

[shami . @brainrotterr]

i got some pantyhose with doll ball-joints printed on them and its the best motivation to get smaller that ive had in months ...life is good💙

[-` ♰ june ⋮ is pink @tinyjvne]

everyone is actually trying to sabotage me, stop offering me food and telling me i should eat, im fat, im hardly going to wither away from malnutrition

[ru ♡ @ruscvre]

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[shami . @brainrotterr]

asking myself why i havent lost any weight as if i don't stay in my room all day, have a daily avg of 500 steps, and consume nothing but broth and alcohol

[BYRON @androcygne]

EGOSPO THREAD : You don't need another bite.

[suni ɞ˚₊ @kiwidiets]

i’m glad i have an ed cause when anything goes wrong i can just starve myself and everything will be okay

[shami . @brainrotterr]

@dssapointmnt i absolutely love ricecakes lmao, tho i usually eat the flavoured ones tbf

[shami . @brainrotterr]

god i feel so disgusting. omads aren't working anymore i just need to Stay fasting

[shami . @brainrotterr]

it's been Maybe a week and a half since i've fully relapsed into restricting and i'm already having seizures again?? im not even back at bmi 13 yet chill the fuck out

[shami . @brainrotterr]

200cal omad for breakfast just to drink all my calories at midnight 💔 time to see if ill end up burning anything l8r to make up for it or if ill just drink more!!

[shami . @brainrotterr]

i feel so fake now that im js bedrotting all the time & abusing adderall in hopes i Maybe can lose 0.01kg.. fuck my disabled life 😭

[shami . @brainrotterr]

it's so funny looking back at my own years old posts on here and being jealous lmao i am. yearning to go back to fasting 5 days a week and exercising nonstop

[shami . @brainrotterr]

only good thing about relapsing so often is the honeymoon phase i swear .

[j♡ ̆̈ •. @reidrexia]

locking the fuck in. no more binges. no more self sabotaging. no more ‘it’s only a little over cals ’. no more using food for comfort. no more excuses. no more skipping my exercises. no more ruining my progress. locking. the. fuck. in.