Unfortunately, I do want a provider. I do want a protector. I do want a leader. I do want a dominant man. I do want emotional maturity and effective communication. I do want mental stability. I do want to be spoiled. I do want self awareness. I do want clingy, obsessed and safe. I do want someone who chooses me every time. And nobody is going to make me feel bad for wanting those things in a partner.
At this big age when people show signs of hidden animosity or weird energy, I just remove myself. I’m not trying to understand you and I’m not trying to make it make sense
its rly cool that other people have gotten to damage me so badly that i feel incapable of having the life/relationships i long to have & i have to somehow do the unbearable work of trying to fix what others have done to me so that i can -maybe- have some version of happiness haha
27 to 33 is the age where every decision you made in your early 20s starts showing up.
You see couples either deeply in love or filing for divorce.
You see people immersed in work they love or trapped in work they hate.
You see some people become bitter and others become hopeful.
None of the decisions felt like much at the time.
But it all starts to show up here.
The life you live today is based on an accumulation of all your past decisions. Be very intentional with the decisions you're making right now.
27-33 is a wake-up call, but it doesn't have to dictate the rest of your future.
You should look back on your embarrassing past selves with an urge to wrap them up in the most comforting hug imaginable, not with condescending resentment