bum ass parents forced me to do some bum ass bullshit w them and i missed the chance to hangout with basically my Only irl friend AND im pretty sure i caught #TheParasite in the process π
i should probably change my dn and username eventually i dont even really have an eating disorder anymore nor is my account really shedtwt anymore im just like. idk. mentalillnesstwt. bleghh
i cant imagine a life without them in it the thought of it makes me want to kill myself and if they die im going with them /srs im so scared of what theyd do if they ever Knew what's swirling around deep within me
nearly Said Too Much while talking to a friend today and nearly spilled the secret ive been hiding from basically fucking Everyone hooooly shit i came so dangerously close #EMBARRASSING i hate vulnerability and i hate just how Weak and malleable this specific friend makes me
one of these days theyre gonna gently nudge me off the edge while im not paying attention and its gonna pop out of my mouth before i even get the chance to actually Think and its all gonna be over
i lied my ass off for ages for their approval and love all for it to amount to Nothing
i became a shell of the person im actually supposed to be because i wanted them to feel Comfortable around me
ripped my heart out. let them smash it to bits Repeatedly. still came back for More
im so fucking depressed and i cant even explain why to any of my friends be asking ill probably get accused of being a lesbophobe or something
i support them and im glad they found themself im just so fucking hurt that they either Never saw me as a man or Never actually Liked Me