I highly recommend you find yourself a clingy (healthy) lovey dovey partner who’s super excited about you. Life is too short to spend it with someone who act like showing love is a chore.
no one talks about the personality shift as you get older. where you no longer want to be impressive, you want to be rested. you want to be regulated and completely unavailable to anything that drains you
people think depression means your sad and crying all the time. depression for me is being stuck in a twilight zone. i can't think , i don't respond to things , nothing is interesting , i just feel empty. not sad , just blank. i have a lot of days like this and they are hard .