Brenna

Cal 💙💛🐻 Perpetual Disruptor of the Loop.

[Brenna @brennathebard]

i was so blessed in so many ways in this life, and if we really do only get just the one, i am happy, despite all the hardships, that this was mine.

[Brenna @brennathebard]

Professor: this paper should be 500 words but also argue an entire point from both sides and have an intro and conclusion

Me:

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it is a uniquely painful torture when a professor says “pick what you want to write about”. i have trouble deciding what i want for lunch, and now you want to tie my grade (and my emotional well-being) to my decision-making abilities?

obviously, she desires my failure.

[Brenna @brennathebard]

it smells like the world is burning. fire coming from multiple sides, spreading fast.

pray for us all.

[Brenna @brennathebard]

you never realize whether you truly love/need something until you are forced to choose what to take with you in an emergency evacuation. how many books can i fit in this duffel??? we’re about to find out.

[Brenna @brennathebard]

trying to make this community college think i’m smart and qualified enough to go to their school is an exercise in frustration and hilarity.

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still not talking about it. still not looking at the photographic evidence of it. still ignoring the congratulations.

because it still feels more like a death than an accomplishment. and no one wants to hear a eulogy right now.

[Brenna @brennathebard]

so, i get that this is like a big achievement and all that jazz, but i kinda planned to go to dragcon

[Brenna @brennathebard]

i have been in the deepest depression this past week. today, my roommate got drunk and tried to order pizza via an automated phone delivery system. hilarity ensued, and i am now crying for an entirely different reason. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

[Brenna @brennathebard]

if there’s one thing the Cal community is awesome at, it’s mobilizing quickly

[Brenna @brennathebard]

my advisor has always seen so much potential in me, and that opinion changed today. she finally admitted i would never survive grad school. i forgot how much it hurts when people stop believing in you.

[Brenna @brennathebard]

i just bombed my final presentation. i am ending my educational career with literally the worst academic moment i have ever had. i am so mortified that i can barely breathe.

[Brenna @brennathebard]

who in the fuck do i know in Houston?

[Brenna @brennathebard]

my roommate just tucks her nightgown into her jeans and goes out and does life, and that is a level of “i don’t give a fuck” that i aspire to.

[Brenna @brennathebard]

despite vast experience on the subject, it never gets easier when someone who promised to stick around opts out. everyone does, eventually, but i’m still human enough that the foresight is not armour enough.

[Brenna @brennathebard]

at this point, every damn time the doctor says “well, the unfortunate thing is…”, i just smile and nod like i am the most zen motherfucker

[Brenna @brennathebard]

this guy in this class resents me so much. it’s not my fault she prefers my company 😂😂😂

[Brenna @brennathebard]

going to ikea is always a game of “i can’t pronounce it, so let’s buy it” for me

[Brenna @brennathebard]

do you ever say “you’re always welcome here” but then get all upset when that person takes that as gospel??? like, i meant once a week at most, bro.

[Brenna @brennathebard]

there is a certain level of togetherness i will never understand. like i will never be able to call up my significant other just to sit there, not talking, each of us doing our own work with no interaction. it serves no purpose.

also could be why i’m still single.