Neverrrrrrrr everrrrrrrr think your story can't change overnight. May September be the month God surprises you with abundance, open doors, unexpected blessings, answered prayers, joy, and healing.
You CANNOT go back in time and change the decisions you took. Forgive yourself, move on, be your best version. You're alive and until death all defeat is psychological.
Rebuild.
GIRL to GIRL: Make September your reset month. Clean your space, organize your finances, get back in the gym, fix your sleep schedule, and lock in on your goals.