My childhood was awful, lost my mother at and early age( watched her suffer - perish away and felt helpless because I couldn’t help her) Right after that my brother got a mental illness too.
you can still pull each one out, but the storage is compressed, and that is what you feel when 10 years seem like 2 imagine one version of you, 10y of mostly repeats.
SEtop cri“ven if you don’t fully believe it yet, keep choosing thoughts that support the version of yourself you want to become.
“I feel confident in my body.”
“I have my dream body.”
“I love the way I look.”
Ugh, I don’t look like that.”
We get along great in the coworker sense, and from an objective standpoint he is good looking. He asked me out and I cringed in front of him (really did not mean to do that) but I quickly tried to explain without sounding like a jackass.