Every time I see this video of Andrew Garfield taking to Elmo about grief, I start crying.
“I’m just thinking about my mom today. She passed away not too long ago. It’s actually kind of okay to miss somebody. Sadness is kind of a gift, a lovely thing to feel in a way because it means you really loved somebody when you miss them."
This is free advice from an expensive psychologist.
If you're an anxious person, do everything for fun. Go to a job interview for fun. Submit documents for fun. Start a blog for fun. Anxiety feeds on importance. Don't make everything a matter of life and death.