noctara ( shed )

not new , 17

[noctara ( shed ) @brokenarmed]

🌹 pinned / about me

- she / they / it
- jan 2009
- shed
- autistic and unstable
- ifb

[noctara ( shed ) @brokenarmed]

@uhhhhhwoof U at school today?

[noctara ( shed ) @brokenarmed]

i found caffeinated gum at walmart??? consider my appetite suppressed

[noctara ( shed ) @brokenarmed]

@nugnuke @saucemaxxing pistachio

[noctara ( shed ) @brokenarmed]

Maybe dead internet theory is real

[noctara ( shed ) @brokenarmed]

@Samyk2i @taekgz So it's actually MORE self centered to trigger your friend in hopes that they will give you advice on hurting yourself, are you a real person

[noctara ( shed ) @brokenarmed]

@pacifyh3rs @taekgz There's no way you're serious lol, finding out your friend has an ed and then asking them for advice on how to hurt themselves is weird as fuck

[may @maymerized]

anyone miss how fast they lost weight that ONE time.. WHAT WAS I ON😭😭

[eli | edrtwt! @_elisdiary]

‘wieiad as a girl who ACTUALLY eats and nourishes her body 🥰🥰’ and she’s eating less than me

[noctara ( shed ) @brokenarmed]

@nugnuke it is safer to do it than not to and therefore less scary ,, and will improve your quality of life at least when it comes to physical comfort ! also it is never over i believe in you spizy

[noctara ( shed ) @brokenarmed]

when u (a big old senior) are changing in the pe locker room and like 3 sophomore girls are lowk staring you down bc of the self mutilation scars on your shoulder that are typically hidden by t-shirts and u lowk feel like a dickwad for existing

[carrie @brownied_out]

what having an eating disorder is like past the honeymoon phase

[𑣲. ℳ°‧ˎˊ˗ @deflowrment]

wdym in forced recovery they make you gain a bunch of weight till you’re basically overweight then just assume like everything is back to normal.

[lizzie @lizzierexic]

no you cant "snap out" of an ed dumbass bitch

[noctara ( shed ) @brokenarmed]

@tweekuyomi @retrotiaz tbh i dont see myself as a person so when people are like you DESERVE to HEAL and NOURISH your BODY it just genuinely makes me nauseous

[Nico ࣪ ִֶָ☾. @tweekuyomi]

Idk why but when people are talking about ED recovery and they use the word "nourishing" or "fueling" in general to refer to eating it pisses me off so fucking bad

[noctara ( shed ) @brokenarmed]

quoting instead of commenting so i dont look contrarian but it actually did feel like this for me the first time, when it became a health-ruining addiction that was the kicker

[𝓁𝒾𝓁𝒶𝒸 ౨ৎ relapsed @cherryneyeliner]

yall remember when edtt used THIS scene to describe the first time purging?

[noctara ( shed ) @brokenarmed]

@basedrexic there is something intrinsically fucking wrong with you

[დ.•**• 𝐸𝑚𝑚𝑎 •**•.დ @Em_ma2672]

Recovery videos on tt be like: "I was so tiny, disciplined, perfect and beautiful. Doctors told me I was the skinniest patient ever" *inserts bc at their lw* "But I felt cold, sometimes. Now that I recovered, I'm huge and ugly, but it's SO worth bc I'm not constipated, anymore."