Recovery Vs Relspse

recovering from anorexia. inpatient X1 .life is worth living

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

@_0lbs Thank you, its just distressing to wake up one morning and see your body change.
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[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

I'm almost one week purge/binge free. My whole body is sore. My stomach is very swollen😔 i also have zero appetite.
I'VE gained almost a stone in a week.
PLEASE tell me it will all go away./ How long will it last ?

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

@_0lbs Thank you, its a relief to know it won't last forever

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Today is the day

  Im taking that step today and am going to stop throwing up after meals and im also going to stop binging at night. I feel as though if i don't throw up im not allowed to binge.

I CAN DO THIS 🤞

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Lunch is a chicken sandwich with  grapes 🍇 and a cherry 🍒 yogurt
This afternoon will consist of yet more painting 😫 hoepfully it's the last time as i only have an outside gate to paint. I'll be over the moon… https://t.co/4FoZrqldQ9

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

I can't wait to tey these different flavoured coffee's from beanies. Im intrigued to see what the cookie dough taste like. What would be your favourite one ? I love irish cream and anything nutty.… https://t.co/ELKgpO9mAg

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Lunch is a chicken and cucumber wholemeal wrap with red grapes 🍇 even though they do look green.
Despite only having about 5 hours sleep im actually feeling wide awake..I could of happily have gotten up at 6:30… https://t.co/YuBiX2QkeM

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Lunch is a ham sandwich with red grapes 🍇
All it takes is one nice person to make you feel good for the day 🙂 woke up in a happy, posotive mood.
#Lunch #hamsandwich #redgrapes #grapes #anorexia #anorexiarecovery… https://t.co/mEJ6zoeNWn

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Dinner is cod 🐟 with broccoli florists 🥦 and sweet potato mash.
I need to start being kinder to myself and allow myself to feel. I need to stop pre judging situations and thinking about the what if's.🤔 It may… https://t.co/aWeAdlBO3B

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Lunch is a hummous sandwich and red grapes 🍇
Therapy is going well. It's nice to know that i could cry and not saying anything the whole session and she wouldnt mind. Makes me feel better if i were to… https://t.co/IyluaMkInI

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Afternoon snack is a packet of quavers with a milky coffee. It may be 23°c outside but that wont stop me from having my usual coffee.
I love being able to wear short sleeves outside and not feel the cold ☀️… https://t.co/x8TQaiAFeV

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Dinner is vegetable fingers with cauliflower and sweet potato mash.
My concentration is nonexistent.
I can't even watch a Netflix series that's 30 minutes without my mind wondering 😔
#Dinner #vegetablefingers… https://t.co/FC5jmqOheR

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Dinner is Birdseye meat free meatballs with carrots, broccoli and sweet potato mash.
How can you tell if it's you or the eating disorder? I feel as though i need to keep moving and i can't tell weather ots me… https://t.co/6x1pKqfe4c

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Wish I was dead maybe i should try to end my life again

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

All i need is someone to talk too. PLEASE

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

This is 100% me, i can't help it.

How honest would you be with your therpaist?
I have things i want to talk to her about but im scared about being judged etc. Ive opened up in the past and then ive been… https://t.co/qJ3zlezipp

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Afternoon snack is a packet of Hula hoops Puft crisps, trying the salt and vinegar ones 👌 with a milky coffee. ☕
Im enjoying trying different things for lunch and afternoon snack. One day i will try different… https://t.co/emPs2xKtFL

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Lunch is a sandwich with another different filling. This time im having a sandwich filled with ham with of course grapes 🍇👌 it's a nice change from having a ham wrap. It's good to change things up a bit.
#Lunch… https://t.co/3VFWPGleyU

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Dinner is Linda mccartney sausages with peas and sweet potato mash.
Anyone else not sleeping ? 😴 I could happily function on four hours sleep. Im feeling tired now but come tonight and I'll be wide awake. Its… https://t.co/WLethnTUK8

[Recovery Vs Relspse @BrokenPurge]

Dinner is vegetable fingers with cauliflower and sweet potato mash.
Woke up feeling happy 😃 and energised this morning. Actually slept well which helped.
3 years ago my dream came true of swimming with Dolphins 🐬… https://t.co/UgBNQBtV9J