𓆸 n.o.w. ֎

☽ diaries of cruelty, submission, philosophy, and confessional vague arts. ☾ surreal journals, dreams, sketches. 🜃

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Creepy doodling in the workplace. Relieved to always rediscover that time and distance does not dimish ability... just imagination.

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@Leilapintonyc0 Wow thank you!! 🥰 I've been offline for a while so this was a pleasant surprise 💓

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Abstract piece, acrylic paint, from 2021. I was deployed to Kuwait at the time. MWR event. Mountainous landscape, volcanoes erupting, a blackened sky. Shipped it to a bf at the time, but he hung it upside down. Years later, I asked for it back.

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2020: upon when Ouroboros no longer eats his tail... the world begins to bleed.

This painting was a gift... I asked for the piece back years after the breakup.

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Here I am content, working, eating. Multivitamin, multimineral. Lots of walking and minimally at a desk, albeit a standing desk. Cowgirl boots. Massages. New exercise routine. Lumbar support cushion for driving and sitting. Sunlight. Free time. I start early; I end early. Perfect

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Been offline for a little.

Been avoiding contact.

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The shadow reaching back. Acrylic paint, March 2018.

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My Instagram posts. #substack #whiteaesthetic #litetature #Nietzsche

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#darkacademia #darkaesthetic #poetry #wintervibes

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Little loser.

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I tore up dozens of letters I had never sent to a past lover and painted bloodied teeth on top of them. The channeling of wild energies. Mixed media art, March 2018.

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Stomach in knots. Twisted. Current sketch.

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July 11, 2021.

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Oh, Nietzsche, I seek your comfort, not your wisdom. Psychologist Alice Miller thinks your illness is what happens when the mind ignores the vital messages of the body.

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@_Xahir_ Symbols, impressions elicit response, meaning. Makes the system's materialism bearable, life beyond epistemology enriched. Art & illusion necessary. You only have so much energy, to go only so far without it. But I am tired, so maybe it is my weakness against stomaching reality.

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The inconsistent, unstable fluctuations of skin, muscle, bone. Appetite closely connected to psyche digestion.

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Plants and pen sketches. Dissections and phases in old notebooks. 2017.

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I am finding Substack victims to follow using Tumblr. 😈❤️

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