people often don't realize that being liked or loved by someone with a venusian influence on the 8H/12H means they'll get protected spiritually speaking and will also have more luck
but if you're mistreating them? oh well, good luck with your life
I'm super cautious about who has access to me lately. It’s not out of arrogance or isolation. It's out of a need to protect my space and energy while I continue to do the work to elevate myself. This chapter requires me to be a little less accessible.
you are putting yourself in harm’s way by continuing to give away your kindness to someone in hopes that it softens the harsh way they keep treating you. do not continue to show someone more of what they refuse to appreciate
You’re afraid to trust, commit, love, and surrender because you know if you do you will go all in. Devotion like that feels scary, as if you are giving your power away. And if something goes wrong then you’d be forced to access pain. Pain is another thing that makes you feel powerless.
So you fall into this cycle where you’re subconsciously avoiding pain, wounds, and hardships at all cost.
You may cope by staying on the run. You think if you’re always disconnected or moving around then you won’t have to worry about getting too close to anyone, meeting your past, or experiencing pain. But you leave a lot unfinished, unsaid, and unhealed.
Whenever you try to bond with others, your fears kick in and you start nitpicking everything about your relationships. You start challenging and testing your partners trying to find evidence of a potential threat where there isn't one.
This is because you are subconsciously daring other people to hurt you so that you can meet your pain, and blame it on someone else rather than taking responsibility for their own healing and seeing the truth of what your pain has turned you into. You need to unearth the pain within you, otherwise you’ll keep spitting it at others like venom hoping they’ll unearth you.
You get stuck in the cycle of burning things to ashes and rising from the flames over and over again. It can be a very toxic situation.
At the end of the day what you’re afraid of is yourself. You’re caught up in a karmic loop and you don’t know how to break it.
Here’s how:
-I’m gonna go ahead & say it… you’re a bad bitch & I know a lot of people don’t like that.
-Who wouldn’t like to be called a bad bitch???
-No, I’m saying a lot of people can’t handle the fact that you ARE one.
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My biggest blessings always came from the riskiest options. I don’t believe in stagnancy and i don’t believe in not getting what i want and deserve. I’m going where my heart calls no matter how daunting
Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
Stevie Nicks, Gemini