Some of us had moms who were physically present but emotionally absent. She cooked. She cleaned. She paid bills. But she never hugged you, affirmed you, or made you feel safe. That’s a scar too.
The biggest ick..a paranoid, unhealed man. Not bc he’s hard to love but bc he’ll make love hard for you. If a man is committed to his pain more than he is to his healing, he will drag you into the war he has with himself.
Do not borrow shame from the past. You are not that person anymore and you simply didn't know better. No reason to beat yourself up for it. All you can do is do better.
I think once this chapter of my life is over, I’ll love from a different place. Right now, I’m just going through the motions of watching an older version of me pass on, to make way for new desires, new hopes and dreams. I’m very deep in that transition.