Kneeling is your basic state when serving a Man. You kneel to show the Superior Man you respect him and you surrender to Him. Mostly of the time serving you will kneel. Get used to it. Kneel at home, as much as you can. Eating, reading, watching TV. It's important for you to get used to it, and also to find a mental and physical submissive state.
⚠️IMPORTANT POST⚠️
There is only two reasons why you aren't properly owned:
1-You have not found a Dom to connect. It's difficult to find a Dom interested in giving you an opportunity to train you. But more difficult is to connect with one. Just try, find a Dom to surrender, and give everything to him. Obey everything from him. Within the weeks you can realise if you are happy serving him or not. You can always politely explain him, how you feel. And see if something else can be done to improve the relationship. Communication is important. If not, you can always give up. Take some rest and look for a new Master to serve.
✅Have it clear: all service is experience you earn. Don't give up. You get better with every service. And every Dom is different.
2- You are not permanent locked🔒
Denial is one of the best tools I have over you. When you are locked, your frustration builds over time and starts to affect how you behave. You become more eager to please and more willing to follow orders. I don’t need to be overly strict when the cage is already doing part of the work. Your own denied body becomes my strongest tool for keeping you in line.