Samantha

🍄And so I went through the looking glass, stepped into the netherworld...🍄

24. Nonbinary. Pagan. Vegan. Kind of a mess.
🌪TW: ED/drugs/ptsd/psychosis/ocd🌪

[; @skinnyxsoul]

It’s tough to get out of bed; I know that myself. You can lie there for an hour and a half without thinking anything, just worrying about what the day holds and knowing that you won’t be able to deal with it.

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

Running on empty with no nutrition and no sleep. Need to work on my assignments for Uni but i cant get myself to start

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

Night number 2 of no sleep. And so it begins.

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

Ended up being admitted to a psych hospital because my mental health was shit. Have been out for 3 days and am right back where i started.

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

i mean, really, what am i even doing with my life? i am not even really losing anything. Well, not unless losing my mind counts.

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

When you are going days at a time without sleeping because you are making yourself stay up and exercise all night and it triggers your body/mind to get to a point where it wont let you fall asleep even when you finally want to because it is conditioned to be exercising instead.

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

Watching "For the Love of Nancy" because it is one of my favorite eating disorder films and crying because it is so relatable.
#fortheloveofnancy #eatingdisorder

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

ive mastered the skill of feeling guilty for asking for anything. probably means i should just stop.

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

Does anyone else feel like they are completely fucking up the whole"being human" thing? No? Just me? Okay.

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

i burn cannabis, sage, and bridges...whatever it takes to clear anything that fucks with my vibration.💖

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

At least we all stick together 🤷‍♀️

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https://t.co/wC8NnxnyeA

This article is so well written and i couldnt not share it
#schizoaffective #mentalhealth

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

"All my faces are alibis"

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@lmlosingmyself Me please!

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

Should i be getting drunk before 3pm? Probably not, but im going to anyway. Alcohol calories are so much better than food calories

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

Why do i keep doing this? Probably because i have no self control.

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

i wish there was a way to go back and tell 11 year old me that she shouldnt have skipped that first meal. But here i am.

[; @skinnyxsoul]

😣

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

Warning: Going to sleep on Sunday will cause a Monday to happen. Please note that staying awake all night does not prevent Monday from coming. There is no cure.

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

Have been starting my mornings off with coffee and writing poetry

[Samantha @butterflyfading]

im wanting august to be here already so i can see Joan Jett in concert. is it too early to be counting down the days?