⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯

𖧧₊˚⊹ hsw | 21 | tw : vent & food diary 🍀🩷 🇬🇧

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

ok i am back hello !

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

i want to do that one korean egg diet ...

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

i have to lose 40lbs in 120 days, thats reasonable right

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

drawing i did :3!

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

@mango_angel07 doodle so far !! (very rough doodle pls forgive!! am working on it)

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

inspired by someone on my tl but reply to this tweet and i will draw ur layout into a character like these!!

(if you have face reveal on ur account i will base it on u! if not itll be randomly based on ur layout, if u want a specific skin/eye/hair colour lmk :3)

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

i started drawing the charas for everyone and today i just cant draw well im going to kay em ess

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

please respond mooties i am bored 💔🍀

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

inspired by someone on my tl but reply to this tweet and i will draw ur layout into a character like these!!

(if you have face reveal on ur account i will base it on u! if not itll be randomly based on ur layout, if u want a specific skin/eye/hair colour lmk :3)

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

@ANAPIXIDREAMBOI like damn it doesnt even have to be all of them, like literally any rep would be great, there are so many stories to be told by people who fit those categories that get either unheard or rewritten to fit a petite 17 yr old blonde

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

@ANAPIXIDREAMBOI i wish more fat, disabled, black, ugly, tall, masculine, queer & neurodivergent women got to have their trauma and life recognised instead of every show depicting trauma focusing on an attractive, able bodied, straight, thin, white, feminine (to the point of infantilisation) girl

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

@ANAPIXIDREAMBOI everything cute and soft and feminine excludes (or tried to exclude) black women, fat women, disabled women (god forbid if you are all 3) i see it in kawaii art, i see it in the coquette community, i see it in feminine rage compilations, i see it in aesthetic tumblr

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

@ANAPIXIDREAMBOI i get filled with rage when i see feminine anger edits and they exclude precious, like she went through sm and if she was some tiny white woman she would be in every lana song pastel pink edit but no

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

and yes i am 100% a hypocrite, i wish i was some small tiny little thing that could receive pity and awe of being so small and so hurt
but im not that
im equally frustrated about that being the only acceptable female pain as i am envious that im not that depiction of it yk

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

like i get it, pain being beautiful isnt a new idea but ive just grown so tired of it being depicted only in this way everywhere, tiny blonde pale girl tortured but still adorable, its just so tiring, i am equally envious as i am conflicted about it

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

maybe im too woke but i have grown tired of art depicting female torture or unhappiness as some beautiful tragic thing, that she is some unblemished underweight tortured little doll, it feels so dehumanising and fetishized and sexualised
i feel insane cuz i cant describe it sjdk

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

im so tired of disordered eating, i have no control around food in either direction, and have maintained a high weight for 2 years now

i couldve lost weight "healthily" and been thin by now but noooo

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

i am mainly talking about artwork depicting women like this done by men, but some women also perpetuate misogyny so

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

maybe im too woke but i have grown tired of art depicting female torture or unhappiness as some beautiful tragic thing, that she is some unblemished underweight tortured little doll, it feels so dehumanising and fetishized and sexualised
i feel insane cuz i cant describe it sjdk

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

going from thin to thinner 💔💔

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

the thing that triggers me the most is these posts from japanese magazines ive seen on pinterest since i was like 13

[⋆. 🐞˚ belle 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @buttonsized]

so tired of having BED, tired of this gnawing hunger inside this empty pit in my stomach all the time, i hate the guilt after the binge, i hate the manic joy of the binge, i hate my weight, i have what this disorder does to my body, ppl dont realise the body horror that is BED