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my edtwt diary. 21. she/they. back after a long hiatus and looking for moots!

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lost almost 10 pounds this week

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i asked him to btw

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met a guy at a nightclub last weekend and he told me he has an anorexia fetish so now he’s telling me how many calories i have to restrict each day

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met a guy at a nightclub last weekend and he told me he has an anorexia fetish so now he’s telling me how many calories i have to restrict each day

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@invisiblemaee friday evenings are a particular kind of beast

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i want to pig out on junk food so bad i’m so hungry

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unfortunately i did w/ wingstop but its fine

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i want to pig out on junk food so bad i’m so hungry

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@pyperreed 22 lbs compared to my hw

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severe feeling of depression is hitting rn

not even about anything in particular

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for some reason every time i relapse i end up religiously listening to electra heart again

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i’ve lowk been a drunkorexic the past few weeks i need to cut that shit out

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can’t wait to get home and weigh myself i haven’t had the chance yet

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OMAD for the day: steak & eggs (the breakfast dish) and a milkshake (dessert)

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under-eating**

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i forgot that underrating makes you constipated lol ugh

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i’m from southern california (born and raised until i moved to nyc in college) and these fires are making me want to binge drink out of rage and sadness and fear

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another day ending with that comforting feeling of hunger

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ok had a v small portion of steak n broccoli and another cookie and that concludes today’s eats

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mealz for today so far have been 3 hotdogs (no bun) w/ ketchup and a homemade sugar cookie from my friend

there’s a good chance i’ll stay at my friends place for long enough that it’s their dinner time so if that’s the case i’ll have a small portion of it

still a deficit 😻

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@invisiblemaee i’m losing sm faster with that method than anything else

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i do not count calories anymore i go based on vibes and the scale the next day and it’s completely stopped me from binging

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i feel so nauseous right now for no good reason