the weird thing about reading so much as a child and gaining a huge vocabulary from that is I can't define a lot of words i use, i just…know that they would fit correctly in a specific sentence. does anyone else experience that 😭?
sometimes i fantasize about suicide just so ppl would blame themselves for every wrong thing they've ever done to me but the sad realistic truth is they'd cope to convince themselves it's not their fault and move on. i'd want them to think it's their fault tho so sucks ig