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bydeera retweeted

5 months ago

hi… 🥺 have you been doing well?? lately i feel like i’ve only been sharing heavy & serious things with czennies, so honestly my heart hasn’t felt very at ease & i feel sorry… but i think today might be my last bubble for a while… so i’m sending this message today with a heavy heart too..ㅠ i never imagined a day like this would come, or that i’d be saying something like this directly to you like this..ㅠ but as i write this, it feels strange that it doesn’t even feel realㅠ while you’ve been receiving my bubble, if even just a little you gained strength from it, and if there were moments where my messages gave you even a bit of good energy to get through your day, then i think i’d be really happy, and really really relieved and thankfulㅠ i couldn’t send bubbles super often, but every time i did, i always meant it sincerely and hoped you’d gain strength from it.. 🥺 honestly, when i read your messages, there were so many times i gained strength too, even if you might not realize it. even now, when i read your messages, there are so many moments where i feel comforted and my heart feels warm. this space called bubble was always fun in that sense & i think i was even happier because you enjoyed it together with me. but because of that, the fact that my bubble is ending after today might be really sad for you & i’m worried it might make things hard for you, so my heart feels really heavy.. i’ve been working hard on lots of different things. i think i’m working with many different people, in many different ways, and making music! i’m also going around looking for inspiration and experiencing a lot of different things. i’ll come back to you and czennies soon with a new side of me & new music. i heard that some of you were worried i might retire… i know this is a time where both you & the members might have a lot of worries, so i want to comfort you and be your strength as soon as possible. i’ll really do my best. but not just simply working hard and coming back, i want to truly grow. and i’ll come back with music made from new ways of expressing that growth. you’ve told me a lot that you like hearing my stories… so i’ll try to put more of my stories into my music. i’m also spending this time thinking deeply about myself, finding myself again, and looking for new inspirations to express myself in new ways. i’ll also prepare a new way to communicate and come back soon. i’m sorry it feels like you’re just waiting… you waited a lot even during my solo album… but this time too, i’ll make sure to repay you with something even better for making you waitㅠ let’s take this time as a moment for both of us to grow, and meet again soonㅠ it’s not like we’ll never see each other again, but i’ll really miss you. really. i’m not going anywhere, so please don’t be too sad or have a hard time, just wait a little. i’ll come back soon. thank you so so much for bubbling with me, listening to my stories, always being my strength, making me laugh, and sharing fun stories with me. thank you for always being so kind to me… we’ll meet again soon! today, tomorrow, and the day after, fighting. 🥺 i sincerely hope you sleep well on all the nights without my messages for a while 🥺 once again, thank you so much & i love you 💚❤️