Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

20. edtwt, bmi: idk cw: i dont wanna know💔 ugw: 35kg

depressed stupid bitch

[bambi @lalapa883]

my life is a constant cycle of this

[⛧ @Artheamish]

accepted the fact that i’ll be a virgin forever

[ᴸᴼᴼ @doobielooo]

lots of people mad about this.. i genuinely hope you all grow up and snap out of the capitalist brainwashed mindset. we were not put on this earth to spend so much time working, especially when it barely allows us to live

[sarah ྀི {forced recovery} @immnothungryy]

Idc what your brain tells you if you ever consider b/p DONT
it’s not worth it, it’ll never be worth it, it won’t prevent you from gaining, there’s literally no pros only cons and it’s insanely addicting despite how shit you’ll feel while doing it

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

The amount of disturbing and disgusting things my bulimia made me do is crazy

[ຣei✮ֶֶֶֶֶֶֶֶֶֶֶֶָָָָָָָָָָָָ֢֢֢֢֢֢֢֢֢֢֢֢ @uesryl]

id rather be malnourished and depressed than obese and depressed

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

I was literally only 5kg from reaching 35 kg and I fucked it up

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

Last December, b/ping 7+ hours a day after an 8 hour shift in customer service, barely any sleep, being 40kg, everyone thinking I'm anorexic, no friends. Maybe I was miserable (still am btw) but I wanna go back 😭😭

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

Might start slowly buying some food for my next b/p

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

I need to wake up at like 3 am

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

I hope tomorrow is gonna go as smoothly as today did like okay maybe I'm tired as fuck but like

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

Daydreaming about b/ping (I'm a miserable bitch)

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

And honestly even though I'm having the biggest b/p urges rn I at least managed to restrict today and I didn't eat anything before/during work

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

Started my new job? 3 days b/p free and it's hell because I want to b/p so badly but parents are home and I can't get food from the kitchen fuck my life but hey at least my next b/p is gonna be amazing

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

And my parents are going away for a few days in 2 weeks I'm gonna have the biggest b/p istg especially cuz I will be getting a weekly paycheck so I'll have money for b/p 🤩🤩

[ᯓ 𝐧𝐰𝐣𝐧𝐬 🫧 @nwjjnss]

im gonna keep having "one last b/p session" until i have a heart attack or rupture my stomach

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

@teenyrina00 I need to know as well, the food noise is literally making me suicidal and I heard that those help with it a lot

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

I'm so hungry

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

I cant wait to wake up tomorrow so I can finally b/p in peace

[Celeste ♡ || ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @c3lested1e]

2 days b/p free