(╬◉◡◉)ノ

x

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my happiness has thorns

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what if i don’t want to be understood?

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what if the reason why i don’t dare to try to take it is because if i failed, they will ask me questions that i don’t want to answer?

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i’m alive. that’s a plus? isn’t it? it isn’t.

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how do i be real but not fade into a ghost? how do i feed the fire until it burns everything to dust? i’m so broken.

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pissed. off.

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too much too much too much

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i’m sorry that i wished for your happiness but i have never thought it would be tied to mine. i’m sorry that i don’t believe it

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i kinda know? but i still feel shitty??? and idek if it’s real???

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i need to stop alternating between anger and misery rn

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i resonate with it, and through resonance a stronger will is made dangerously and irrationally

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i wish i could voice them out loud, but when they materialise in words, it feels like i’m getting it all wrong, so really it’s better if they stay inside.

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if i’m happy but still hold that urge to wanna die, does that make me depressed?

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every feeling is amplified to a point that joy becomes painful to hold

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over and over again

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haven’t felt this shitty in a long time, thanks to an overdose

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Allow me to be mad

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digging straight through my triggers

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by the end of this week, pretty sure my social anxiety would've eaten me alive

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i stopped wanting to care.