Ga enak banget rasanya hampir tiap hari tiap malem tidur with a heavy heart, tapi tetep berusaha melanjutkan hidup karena this is adult life. Akhirnya kena lagi gerdnya wkwkwkwk
Saddest part of being a remote worker is kalo lagi sedih gue gabisa keluar jalan-jalan cari jajanan enak, bisanya cuma nangis sendirian di kamar terus masak indomie๐
Selama ini gue dibecandain yang nyakitin hati gue juga diem aja, giliran gue udah muak dan cuma gue bales satu kata aja langsung ngerasa paling tersakiti๐
Makin ke sini gue tuh makin susah ya buat percaya sama orang, karena ternyata emang orang yang paling deket sama kita lah yang pada akhirnya nusuk kita paling dalem.
Gue sampe sempet lama ga aktif sosmed karena gue masih sakit hati banget ternyata orang terdekat gue sendiri yang gasuka sama blessings yang gue cuma berusaha untuk grateful.
My very first time chose aisle seat, another 2 seats beside me was empty, and my very first time I cried all along the flight.
I donโt really know what happen to me, but all of sudden my childhoood wounds came stabbed my heart so deep.
I imagined, what if I told my parents what happened to me back when I was a kid till teenager, and it really breaks my heart into pieces. But then I realized, may I forgave them all, but I never really heal enough, I still live with the wounds.