onyx

diva in progress edtwt

[onyx @cactusloss]

i wish i never went to the psychiatrist i thought i just wasnt disciplined enough which is also true but the antidepressants r definitely increasing my hunger rapidly and its not usual hunger its like extreme hunger this is fucking awful I cant fucking restrict

[onyx @cactusloss]

it feels like my body is working against me i want this so bad if it keeps going like this ill stop taking my meds

[onyx @cactusloss]

i cant do this bro

[onyx @cactusloss]

bro i'll literally be depressed this summer because I'm FAT this is working against me

[onyx @cactusloss]

FUCK ANTIDEPRESSANTS IF I EAT UNDER 1000 CALS I FEEL STARVED AND I'M ALREADY FAT WTF

[onyx @cactusloss]

FUCK ANTIDEPRESSANTS IF I EAT UNDER 1000 CALS I FEEL STARVED AND I'M ALREADY FAT WTF

[onyx @cactusloss]

i just have to accept i'll be fat this summer these anti depressants make me feel like a starved victorian child every 2 hours even if I already surpassed my limit by a lot💔

[onyx @cactusloss]

the lioness slightly concerns herself with her strange abdominal pains...

[onyx @cactusloss]

after my 18188 tweet long rant about how I have to eat under 500c to lose the bare minimum I can lose before summer, I overate for 3 days and had 700c today. I don't understand how I got to be this way I used to be able to lose so easily bruh

[onyx @cactusloss]

@equalspanda just overconfident af

[onyx @cactusloss]

3 guys followed me within an hour and they are all chopped shit I might be chopped atp

[onyx @cactusloss]

@equalspanda 😥

[onyx @cactusloss]

there's no hope for me anymore i did allat just to still be fat during the summer. now i cant even have a 500c limit, which would still not be enough btw

[onyx @cactusloss]

the guilt and shame are eating me alive i can't put it into words i'm never gonna fucking end this and pretty soon ill be in shorts naked and ashamed

[onyx @cactusloss]

if i have more than 500c tomorrow shoot me a

[onyx @cactusloss]

if i have more than 500c tomorrow shoot me

[onyx @cactusloss]

i'm not fucking acting like it. i can't believe in 3 weeks ill be exposed again and im still here after all that suffering im still this weight

[onyx @cactusloss]

i feel sick why can't I do this

[onyx @cactusloss]

if i keep going like this i'll be entering june the same weight

[onyx @cactusloss]

the more I tweet on here about my plans the more I eat. I will go silent ...actions not words....

[onyx @cactusloss]

JUST FUCKING STARVEEE INSTEAD OF CALCULATING AND WORRYING JESUS