I've been a coffee snob for a while but now I'm REALLY getting into specialty coffee...
ie; coffee tastings (cuppings), attending competitions, going to cafe events...
also meeting the 2025 international barista champion tomorrow :3
fave latte rn is macadamia milk and thyme syrup
in a way I get angry because I'm jealous that they were able to overcome this awful disease and I'm glad that they didn't succumb to it
I'm going to hell just for my pure jealousy
I get irrationally angry when some people try and relate to my ed with having ana/mia for like a year or two
it doesn't diminish their struggles and they're 100 % valid but they CANNOT understand the absolute anguish and misery of pure addiction to b/ping, coming on a decade (1)
like I'm probably going to end up in jail. I'm miserable, every waking moment is b/ping, getting food to b/p, waiting to b/p, planning my next.
I've almost died so, so many times and I'm useless to society
@meowlimic 8- you realise you lost 10kg but you can't walk
9- get hospitalised because now you have a blood infection
10- get back to the b/p cycle and gain the weight back anyway FFS
@meowlimic 4- gradually get scared of eating anything you don't weigh out meticulously
5- break on the way home and binge
6- you get gastro and can't keep anything down anyway
7- binge causes refeeding syndrome bc you didn't eat for 2 months