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i swear they couldn't love you like me

[uwa uwa @calebism_]

So i just finish reading Savage Overture date event and wanna rank them based on my preference and add a bit headcanons becos why not

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Reciprocate or expected anything out of it.

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This particular scene hits the hardest as someone who dissociates as a coping mechanism because it comes from a very similar place of needing to be there physically but shutting off emotionally and spiritually.

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Furfill his role and "duty", must endure the rather excruciating moments where his physical sense was needed but not his conceptual state. Thus he shuts down, not only because he was getting away, but it was easier to endure things when you do not

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They used to do that shit where you tell them something and they turn it into a lecture or worse they critizise the shit out of it. Since then i dont want them to know anything about me

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Seeing my mom trying to contact me through social media other than whatsapp is alarming because i dont want you to find out more about me than you need to know, like personally stay in whatsapp please

[uwa uwa @calebism_]

For all its worth. It honestly feel like theyre intruding and using anything they can find about me towards me and to nobodys surprise it was still a thing even now.

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People around me are just a school of fishes that is better off not trying to understand my issues because the effort to explain struggles they cannot exmphatize only makes you angrier and in response they gave you shallow words that only pisses you more

[uwa uwa @calebism_]

I prefer to keep my conversation with them shallow enough because at least i dont expect anything out of it and was nothing more than good nice to know shit. Yea sure that made my relationship with them stiff as fuck but it saves my mental capacity so fuck them

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Sometimes im less inclined to talk to my parents because i welled up so much anger and i dont want that anger to spray on them. Luckily, they understood me just enough to tell when i am angry, and never bother to ask me what angers me

[uwa uwa @calebism_]

Its so fucking egragious the level of emotional null my bloodline have when its better to ignore each others grievances because its better than being disappointed by the quality of responses when it was reciprocated.

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The older i become the more i realize i am slowly inheriting my dads anger because there is simply no way

[uwa uwa @calebism_]

I begin to despise my owm birthday, because it only made me expected shit

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The older i am the more bitter i become, like this untangible annoyance that fills my chest and i cannot get rid of it

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I grow irritated easily from other people, maybe im just tired, maybe im just fracturing beyond repair