sa totoo lang, ang pinakamasayang ako ay noong nagsisilbi ako sa masa. kahit sobrang hirap, doon ako pinaka naging masaya. kaya lang nakulangan ako sa paninindigan at tapang dahil mas nanaig ang kontradiksyon ko— ang pamilya. hay i miss the FT life so much :(
oh god i really hate getting my heart broken bc of a boy. i don't remember it hurting this much. i've suffered worse things than this but god, haven't i had enough?
alam ko naman na i can do so much better in so many things— sa acads, career, love, relationships, hobbies, etc.
for some reasons, di ko nagagawa kahit self-aware ako. i really just have to push myself harder. mind over matter!