Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy

21 5'6 / she her / ed / vent sometimes / sw160 cw134.4

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

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[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

i hate drinking but i love being drunk

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

i just made pasta and meatballs eith homemade sauce for the first time it is so fucking good. drunk cooking #1 anorexic

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

im so tired of binging

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

i have to gaslight myself into losing weight normally or ill crash tf out

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

i hate not knowing what im gonna eat in a day bc i have to save my calories for until night time and my bf could end up wanting something out of my budget and id just have to go w it

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

why cant i stay on track man i hate this

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

fucking binged again im gonna kms

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

everytime i look in the mirror all i see is fat. i can only remember what i used to look like. i was so tiny.

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

omfg i want more broccoli it was so fucking good

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

i wanna eat breakfast tmr maybe ill male eggs and toast idk

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

Day 6 (7/23)
total cals 1047
im so big i couldnt eat under 1000 but its whatever im thinking abt what i shpuld eat tmr morning

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

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[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

Day 5
binged.

[Kiki @kikikikigs]

new thinspo just dropped

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

tmrs my day off again so imma make breakfast, walk to coffee shop maybe, and then walk to publix for soups and low cal stuf

[♡ @lenibeniii]

ok time to go workout

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

so everyones just relapsing now

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

literally thinking abt just going to bed so i dont eat

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

i wanna smoke but im scared of getting the munchies

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

craving honey nut cereal

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

for the next 5 days i want to try and stay under 1000 cals and then 900 for another 5 and continue until its at 500

[Mothica (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠) trying to b healthy @calsncms]

@blushbinge Social anxiety, ADHD, and OSTSRD(Other Specified Trauma and Stressor Related Disorder)