i haven’t been active on this account in YEARS, but it’s the first place I wanted to go after hearing the news about Liam. I feel completely numb and don’t know how to process the loss of someone that I never met, but had a lasting impact on me and who I am as a person
he was not a great person. his sudden death does not negate his horrible actions. and this is definitely NOT maya's fault. however, we are still allowed to grieve and feel heartbroken. he was still a part of our childhoods. sending so so much love to liam's family and friends
remember the tumblr post that was like one day you’ll be 50 and driving and the radio will announce a one direction member has died so you pull over… yeah that wasn’t supposed to be now
i’m not going to pretend i didn’t dislike liam. but im mourning the version of him that my 12-14 year old self knew. im devastated for his family, especially his baby boy. im also devastated for maya who felt strong enough to share her story and will now be attacked.
this is such a hard thing to process just because i grew to look at liam differently doesn't mean my stomach isn't in knots about this considering he was a huge part of the way i grew up
i resent the man he has become but the heart of the little fangirl in me who used to cheer him on feels so heavy that he didn’t seek help let alone passed away
one direction gave me my bestest friends, some of my dearest memories, and changed my life. that being said - i do not condone the abuse one bit. it is weird grieving a person he has not been for a long time. i am struggling to find the words for this feeling & situation
man. it feels so weird being in your 20s mourning a celebrity who you once grew up with. shaped your teenage hood and you made life long friends out of. at the same time not excusing who he became but also trying to grieve who he once was.
Growing up with one direction was one of the most incredible parts of my teenage years, including the community I gained through that. I carry that with me to this day and that part of me doesn’t know how to feel