Casey_hopes

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

If there's a fork in the road take it

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

I know what i'd have wanted, a decent college ed, working to a good enough job, time to write, to have transitioned and froze a sample for babies, a woman or maybe a man to have loved. Idk where to go now though, i want to it to be too late but I don't feel disfigured enough yet

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

I'll never be the same, I'll never be like other people. The touch of a woman will always hurt so badly. I may avoid love for a lifetime. Ill definitely be a little less alive. Maybe that's what time does but for me I feel as if that's more the case cont.

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

Why didn't I transition :(

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

This dream of mine isn't going to come true is it. Iwnbaw and I will never be anything cool or good. I'm just a mope forever.

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

My family pretty much did this to me too

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

@emmma_camp_ I don't know if this is true. I used to get incredibly anxious about tests that I scored really well on.

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

You think I'm like you and that's why you listen but I'm not. I'm just a balding, blue collar, suicidal man.

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

@Altermerea We've reached an apex of the social construct theory wherein we realize that it is in fact to a certain degree all biology. We've got as far as we can as far as social constructs go.

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

I've got one life goal. Ruin things enough so that life gets bad enough that I can commit suicide. That's it. My life is about the courage to die.

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

@glit3i @boytransbian Trans man, that's different. It's easy to make a woman look like a man but not the inverse.

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

@boytransbian Wish I was groomed. Now it's just less and less everyday

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

@Foiblaet This is me and im gonna die

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

It's such a beautiful complicated world where you can be who you want to be. Like 1% of the time. Most lives so full you might as well not live. I'm getting out of here. I'm going quiet shame.

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

@zoemaestra Wow ok how long does it take to like permanently hair remove though?

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

@denimneverdies He could remove free will just that one time and leave it alone the others. This is an instance where a molinism like argument could actually work.

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

Why'd I have to be nobody why'd I have to be born at all just to be nobody.

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

It's just like this forever. It's just birth, mediocrity, failed ambitions and death.

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

@lepiofthevalley This was my thing my one thing.

[Casey_hopes @Carrieflowr]

I can't believe I'm stupid and worthless now. I can't believe I don't get to be anything. I just have to sit here and settle forever and slowly die of disappointment.