cayj✌️🖤

an emoish geeky girl who loves coffee, art, cats, music, and nature. i am busy with life, i work and go to college. im alive tho :)

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

hi.. im alive, just busy. i want to try to keep my account private, i have a lot of weird posts on here talking about so much stuff. i should also stop posting about certain things, i have a long list. i am feeling weird about it and i don't want to cause problems... im sorry

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

i hate depression brain, when im stuck in the house with nothing to do but go on my phone. im so lucky i go to a uni and have a job, but even then i still experience this at times. but if i didn't have anything in my life, i wouldn't know what i would even do

[Posts Of Cats @PostsOfCats]

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[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

@spiderlingdaya it isn't a bad thing to still be a virgin. and it's good to want your first moment to be special and wonderful, and with someone you love and care about who loves and cares about you.

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

@spiderlingdaya yeah that must be very annoying, i feel you in a way. im currently 22, a virgin, and female, who is in college and has a job. im bi, but i haven't really been in a relationship, except for in middle school. nor ever had sex, etc. we want our moments to be special

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

@lordbrazes i feel proud of myself for waiting, it's an accomplishment since i take my virginity seriously and i want it to be very special if i were to give it to someone. i don't want to miss out on love and romance... or intimacy. but im okay where i am now

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

@lordbrazes oh man, wrll i don't think im wasting my life. im 22 and still a virgin, and yes i want to have that experience someday. but i want it to be special and with the right person, and i have a crush right now but so far can't exactly pursue a relationship with them yet.

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

@Cloaker2nd it's okay, it did come off as rude but i can tell that you were just wondering. i don't know your true opinion, but i support her decision full-heartedly and believe that abortion access is a good thing

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

@Cloaker2nd Look man, they probably have used protection, and they said they are on birth control as well. if they didn't want the kid, they shouldn't have to have one. plus i don't think it's even been conceived for a long time

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

@gummysalamander I support you, i don't understand people like that troll who was saying that crap about you. Happy late International Women's Day, keep being you and doing your thing. Your decisions are yours and you did what was right for yourself. And that cookie cake looks good btw

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

@BrodyFoxx I'm not truly okay... i feel like im still worried if im not good enough, if people from my past are still judging me, and if im actually okay. i wish i was even more independent, but life is hard even with college and a job. this economy makes it hard to even have my own place

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

sometimes i feel like other people are put off by me and like i do something wrong. it's hard to even say hi to some people without worrying why they seem like they don't want to talk to me. like what did i even do to them? it sucks sometimes

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

ive been thinking lately, ive never once went to a frat party. i don't want to go, im not big on parties, especially big and crazy ones. but i wonder what it would be like to experience it just once? it probably doesn't matter. im too busy with mostly work and school

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

and although i do like my alone time, and that i need my quiet space and time to myself, i do feel like im excluded even from some friends and other social spaces. and when i do hang out with a friend, i value time & the nice fun we have together. but i still feel alone

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

aside from all of this, i weirdly like the movie. It doesn't have much queerness in it, aside from a gay man, and I feel like Christina/Chris, that awesoke unique blonde girl who is Lara Jean's current best friend, is soooo bi-coded. let's hope im right! also she's my favourite

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

started watching "to all the boys ive loved before" since i like XO Kitty and some people irl recommend this movie series. But fuck, I'm getting really emotional. I can't get over the fact that Lara Jean doesn't get with Josh, they really liked eachother... and I feel so sad

[cayj✌️🖤 @casscat7]

like, she ends up in a fake relationship with someone else and they end up falling for eachother. and part of me is screaming "WHAT ABOUT JOSH" i feel sad

[Max @welp_max]

a gay transphobe is a traitor. never forget it.