i have screenshots but they’d be pointless to post. it’s just that this time, there’s something bigger than myself to protect. and im scared and sad about it.
my ex is “met” someone who looks exactly like all of the things he told me i could/to change about myself. my crazy hair, my skinny body.
he praised me whenever i got “thick” or wore tighter clothes or straightened my hair. yet this is literally someone who looks just like me.
at some point i’m going to be asked to take these down, im sure. be told i’m illogical. whatever. but not a week ago he asked me to tell him i loved him, that he missed and loved me. not surprised or hurt, just kind of numb and hate that i’ve continued to let it go for so long.